Ramble On

So I've been getting pretty overwhelmed lately with the prospects of the future. I'll admit I'm really easily influenced by people I meet and books that I read. I tend to read a book and imagine myself living the lives of the characters.

I made a friend at work who had told me upon our introduction that he'd be leaving for Alaska soon. He's a twitchy nervous guy who previously had been traveling across the U.S. following music and hanging around. I didn't really know anything about him other than he was telling me, his boss, that he was quitting. I got a little mad, but also thought it would never happen, and let it go. People come and go pretty quickly with canvassing, I wasn't going to become jealous of this guy who I assumed was just a weird liar. The thought of Alaska has been in and out of my life since graduating. I had far too much time to read and was reading Into The Wild and living in Ithaca. I started to plan how I could get out of paying back my student loans and following my new found dream of hiking through Alaska. Later my two best friends were in a student film entitled What's In Alaska. Steve left for his trip on Saturday.

Now I'm reading Woody Guthrie: A Life by Joe Klein. I'm getting restless and stir crazy. I spent the entire day today finishing the book and learning about life in that time. I know I'm going to be life long learner. In all honesty, I miss college and structured learning. I want to get on the road. I may get this job back at Ithaca which would be nice but still would feel like a step backward. At the same time I cannot stay in Buffalo much longer. At least work is ending. I've been feeling trapped by the people I work with.

I went out to see a bluegrass band on Friday called the Erie Lackawanna Railroad band with Josh, Rob and Steve. Matt and some guys from last summer met us out later. The show was fun, but they were no Baby Seal Clubbers. I miss those guys. I've also started thinking about going to Nashville. My mom has been pressing me to look for jobs in D.C. I can't really see myself there.

Websites I've been into lately:
www.jango.com --- I just found this website today, it's a lot like pandora, but I like it more
www.ultimate-guitar.com --- for guitar tabs
www.coolworks.com --- non-traditional jobs in nature
www.allmusic.com --- resource for everything you would want to know about artists
www.careerbuilder.com --- I've been posting my resume more lately and getting phone calls, it's a relief
www.idealist.org --- job site for non-profits

I can't believe it's August already. I was supposed to have a band meeting for Supernova on Thursday which required me to rearrange my schedule within NYPIRG. No bands showed. This job, although I love it, is becoming more trouble than it's worth. It's music for the sake of music.